when i share my mental health diagnosis, the most common response i get is 'i'm so sorry.' even therapists remind me not to feel ashamed of my diagnosis...before i've even said anything, assuming that the acronyms associated with my mental health are an obvious source of shame.

tw: abuse, self-harm, disordered eating -- working out has been my most precious and effective coping mechanism...but i have to keep strict boundaries around how and why i work out. in this episode, i talk about how dance, exercise, and yoga have saved me and helped me heal from past habits of self-harm.

as my first audio love note to y'all, i wanted to share an unedited and rather unfiltered reflection on where i find myself right now -- feeling everything and nothing at all. in this episode, i talk through how my major depressive disorder manifests in my own life and how i try to cope with it.